My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
My brother
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.

And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
had overdosed
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not

The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not

My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
almost invisible
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not

So y’all can take your narcissistic
and glamorizing
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.

But you
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.

(via c-isnenegro)


(via dramxtic)

tell me I don’t need feminism

tell me I don’t need feminism when a white women gets payed 77 cents to every dollar a man makes and women of color get payed even less

tell me I don’t need feminism when only 18% of prosecuted rapes end with conviction

tell me I don’t need feminism when my brother can walk around in just his underwear but I cannot walk around in shorts and a t-shirt because I will be sexualized and told to cover up

tell me I don’t need feminism when women are abused sexually, abused mentally, and abused physically and told it is their fault that it happened

tell me I don’t need feminism when girls get called ‘sluts’ or ‘whores’ when they have sex but boys get a high five

tell me I don’t need feminism when a man feels entitled to a woman’s body when she is her own person

tell me I don’t need feminism when you’re told at a young age ‘boys will be boys’ and to ignore them instead of teaching boys not to do that

tell me I don’t need feminism when men hear of this movement and turn it into a movement about them and how a feminist hates all men

tell me I don’t need feminism when you type in Google ‘feminist are’ and you get ‘stupid’ and ‘retarded’ as and end result because we realize what is wrong

tell me I don’t need feminism because you’re scared of the strength of women

tell me I don’t need feminism

― a.d (via yousaidyouwantme)


when ur absent from school and you ask the teacher to explain something and they just say ‘well you should have been here’



my dad is a cop and i just called him and he was like “hey i have a 17 year old boy in the back of my cop car right now that i’m running him to the station” and i asked if he was cute and my dad said “Hey, my daughter wants to know if you’re cute” and the guy said “i want to say yes, sir” and my dad started laughing so hard

I think about dying but I dont want to die. Not even close. In fact my problem is the complete opposite. I want to live, I want to escape. I feel trapped and bored and claustrophobic. There’s so much to see and so much to do but I somehow still find myself doing nothing at all. I’m still here in this metaphorical bubble of existence and I can’t quite figure out what the hell I’m doing or how to get out of it.
― Matty Healy  (via neavou)